Rough Season– don’t you think?

 I’m surprised we’re still here, aren’t you?

I have now listened to the Ps 121, Ps 37, Ps 18 and\or Rick Warren, Joyce Meyer, Beth Moore, RT Kendall, Steven Furtick and a bunch of other sermons and scripture.

Roughly 32 billion times.

i love 💕 it

Conclusion…we are going to make it guys. 

strengthandcourage.That is what I am talking about.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. That’s in 2 Corinthians.


God is not going to overestimate my stress capacity.  He’s got the specs…….

For my soul.

The Bible says “He formed my inward parts in the secret places”  ps 139.  That has got to include capacity indications.

Like I know how many corn dogs my kids will eat when I’m cooking. Like I know how much ⛽ to put in my car when I’m filling it.

I have to start by giving it to Jesus

asking for His help just to breathe.

trust God.

He’s got the specs:

Sabbath rest

I’m still learning at 50
about slowing down to smell the roses.

How ’bout you?

I was raised to work hard

without stopping

until I collapsed.

That is how I watched my mom deal with her pain.

I learned it well.

I want to be careful that I don’t judge her.

She didn’t have much to work with.

It’s easier for me

because of her (and others’) sacrifices.

  • The early women’s movement (pre70s?)
  • My grandmas both of ’em
  • My mother in some ways


the concept of rest is new for me

I want to learn about it.

here I am: God.


Going to the mattresses

I’ve gone on a retreat to my oldest daughter’s house the last few days. I was ready to just leave my hubby.

(Isn’t that the first thing we girls try to change? Like it’s a cure-all. But the thing about deciding to cut and run….you have to take your self with you.)

I’ve got some midlife issues facing me. Hubby is not listening to me about them. It’s just been me and God for about a year.

It’s time.

To go

to the mattresses

for my marriage.

For my life.

It’s war. Some stuff has to change.

Fish or cut bait.

So here’s what God said to me these last few days….

(however that works. But He has no trouble getting his point across, does He?)

….via Facebook messenger, prayer, Bible, Auntie, girlfriends….

Word from Heidi: No decisions right now. Wait for God’s peace. Accept this respite.

Word from 🌹daughter Rose. No confrontation with Dad yet. Life back to normal but I am taking over your care. Respite person hire. Errand person hire. Physical care hire. Twice a week, 4 hrs

Word from Adrian. Hold on to Jesus. He sees you. He will tell you what to do.

Word from Debbie. I love you. Imagine Jesus there with you talking and making decisions

I’ve been blogging and reading my Bible a lot the last few days too.
Hagar- He is the God Who sees me has been in my head.

Studying Jesus on being alone and making decisions.

Reviewing God’s promises in the Bible. Esp. Jer. 29:11.

  1. Just to let you know, dears.
  2. And for the few girls I would like to mentor.
  3. And for my kids. 🌻
  4. And for all the other Christian choleric\melancholy women married to phlegmatic\sanguine men who this might speak to.
  5. And because I gotta have a voice.