Emotional healing – reboot my ❤

Solo hope

January 13, 2022January 15, 2022 Posted in hopePost format: ImageLeave a comment

I never thought about this before but we are all living on islands

if you look at it as the whole earth was one land, and then God’s busted it apart during the flood and released The Fountains of the deep and then we just kept drifting apart from each other..

You are our only hope Jesus, on our islands. Literally and metaphorical-ly.

come and save us.

thank you that you will never get tired

Never quit

Never falter

Never be discouraged and give up on Your kids

Your great mission on our earth: doing good and helping all the poor and downtrodden and suffering.

#wannabethat

SRA yuckiness

December 8, 2021December 15, 2021 Posted in breakthrough, DID, PTSD, flash back recoveryPost format: ImageLeave a comment

Warning potentially triggering material proceed with caution.

I had a very graphic dream last night and immediately wrote it down and am happily making plans for what I’m going to do with this information.

But…

I’m a little stressed out.

Just in case there’s someone who’s also Survivor… I don’t want to act like it’s a piece of cake and I never have to do therapy.

So yeah we’re making plans…. more later.

House bound 🙌

November 22, 2021December 15, 2021 Posted in autoimmune disease, Christian life, chronic pain, desert of the soul, recoveryPost format: ImageLeave a comment

As I get older

and especially as I have been in bed for 10 years

while my friends must go on without me

I don’t know what that says, but I can relate.

and really had to go to the mattresses with God (pun intended)

and spend a lot of time alone with Him

I’m getting to where I have

this deep

peaceful

sense of well-being that is all through my slice of life.

I made it through Halloween! Well…WE made it with God’s help. Sooo many people praying. Thank you Lord. I’m making new harvest memories around this holiday. It’s not just the SRA yuckiness anymore. Those memories are part of who I am and I accept them. But they’re NOT ALL OF who I am. I’m reclaiming this day for Jesus. #bethethingiwishihad #reframeitThanks you guys. I could not have done it without ya . #bethechurch

November 6, 2021 Posted in recoveryPost format: ImageLeave a comment

Aftermath of the pandemic

October 7, 2021October 24, 2021 Posted in recoveryPost format: ImageLeave a comment

~blog that I follow nails this. (Even though the topic is chronic physical pain)

“….it is hard to exactly know where that limit is. We can inadvertently exceed our pain limit and not know it until later that day. And when we do know we did we know for sure the next few days are not going to be fun, at all.

“This is just the way things are with chronic pain. It is hard with constant baseline pain to know when exactly you do too much in a day.

“But you know too little can also be a huge problem. Somehow we have to stay in the middle there.

We know it is a malfunctioning pain system but we still have to stay within our pain and fatigue levels to maximize our functionality and prevent boom and bust crashes, as best we can.” ~~brainless blogger @ wordpress

How do we fix our find broken (overused) alarm system?

I was thinking about this as regards the global pandemic~ just seems to go on and on and more and more and more bad news until we just feel kind of numb…..I mean, right?

return to the manufacturer for repairs!

I need you God! I cannot fix this by myself.

Repeat.

This is just the way things are with chronic pain. It is hard with constant baseline of pain to know when exactly you do too much in a day.

But you know too little can also be a huge problem. Somehow we have to stay in the middle there.

We know it is a malfunctioning pain system but we still have to stay within our pain and fatigue levels to maximize our functionality and prevent boom and bust crashes, as best we can”.

Lord I need YOU to reboot my heart .

I need you to help me find my sweet spot ❤ again.