Early morning chutzpah 🌼🌸💮🏵🌼🌸

So be it 😌
  • Girlfriends asleep
  • Family asleep
  • Hubby asleep
  • Dogs asleep
  • Quiet house
  • Flu-like autoimmune symptoms
  • Already slept off my sleep aid
  • Maxed~out on ibuprofen and Tylenol for today

Here I am Jesus: it’s just me and You.

I need You;  that’s flat.

I remember others who are wakeful at 3am:

  1. inmate who is stuck with the choices he made when he was too young to know better
  2. mom of small ones. Who is up with a croupey baby again, has to get up for work in the morning, and is dreading it (*note; discover plod mode)
  3. cancer patient: sick of that inescapable, omnipresent too familiar bed
  4. prisoner in a foreign country, denied pain medication because “he is an unbeliever” (and therefore untouchable).
  5. homeless person whose newspapers and coats are not enough to keep him warm this time.
  6. psychiatric inpatient whose night mares make her fear sleep and who misses home
  7. care home patient ~ the empty ache of the seemingly forgotten
  8. woman post-abortion ~ empty arms

Can I pray 🙏 for us?

Jesus thank You for the good and the bad things in our lives. Thank You for small indestructible joys. Help us to get all the good there is to be had out of our suffering. Enlarge our souls to understand the great ocean 💙 of Your cleansing, pure, full, restoring love 💘 for us.

🦁 🦁 🦁 🦁 🦁

Grief is great. Let us be good to one another.

~The Magician’s Nephew

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Internal boundary 🌷

Giving myself eight more minutes to work on this problem. 

Then it’s going to go in my

  •  someoneelsesproblem box
  •  or my God box
  •  or my later box
  •  or all three. 


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I am not freaked out 

 I am adequately stable at the moment ,

not in imminent danger of being suicidal ,

not inordinately vulnerable to outside stressors. 

Come to think of it those are all good things
that

being sick

for eight years have given me.

🎁 🌈 🎁 🌈 🎁 🌈 🎁 🌈 🎁

Rough Season– don’t you think?

 I’m surprised we’re still here, aren’t you?

I have now listened to the Ps 121, Ps 37, Ps 18 and\or Rick Warren, Joyce Meyer, Beth Moore, RT Kendall, Steven Furtick and a bunch of other sermons and scripture.

Roughly 32 billion times.

i love 💕 it

Conclusion…we are going to make it guys. 

strengthandcourage.That is what I am talking about.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. That’s in 2 Corinthians.

#gonnamakeit

God is not going to overestimate my stress capacity.  He’s got the specs…….

For my soul.

The Bible says “He formed my inward parts in the secret places”  ps 139.  That has got to include capacity indications.

Like I know how many corn dogs my kids will eat when I’m cooking. Like I know how much ⛽ to put in my car when I’m filling it.

I have to start by giving it to Jesus

asking for His help just to breathe.

trust God.

He’s got the specs:

Youversion nails it 💕

Have mercy on me for in You I take refuge.*** I will take refuge in the shadow of Your wings *** until the disaster has passed. Ps 57:1

It may take us a while to get to the other side; some of our plans and dreams may be on hold for a short while. We may have to cut back a bit and make some changes.

At the same time, we wait, but rest assured the prophetic Word God gave you before this storm still stands firm in heaven, and it will manifest in this earth if you stand firm on his Word.

As we …pick up the broken pieces and rise out of the ashes, keeping our eyes on Jesus, knowing he is with us, we can stand in his authority.

This principality will fall, and the purpose you were called to will manifest—hold on to His Word because you will make it to the other side!

Youversion devo “Purpose in the Storm” for today

Things I love

I’m so sad. Grief is hard work, ya know?

Time for a list. Reboot my 💜

  • California poppies
  • Yellow m&ms with peanuts
  • Depends Silhouettes (just keepin’ it real)
  • Clean sheets after a warm 🛁
  • 🐈laying in puddles of 🌞
  • My 🐕. They have such a great attitude, no matter what. #overcomeevilwithgood
  • Taco salad 🥗 from Wendy’s©
  • Queen Anne’s Lace and pink sweet peas
  • Birthdays 🎁🎂🎉
  • Vegetables – colorful, munchable variety
  • Crocheted afghans
  • My small group at Elevation
  • Rays of 🌞 streaming in my window
  • Chocolate 🍫in moderation
  • Learning new skills (current fave listening)
  • My Youversion Devotional- super encouraged
  • Holy Spirit- always there
  • Jesus – endlessly awesome 😎
  • Father God – so kind and full of integrity and wisdom
  • Unstoppable spring
  • Myths and stories
  • Ireland and Artemis Fowl
  • Elizabeth Kubler-Ross, stages of grief #incrediblyhelpful
  • Toe socks with fun patterns

Thank You 💕 God. Hug received 🤗

Sabbath rest

I’m still learning at 50
about slowing down to smell the roses.

How ’bout you?

I was raised to work hard

without stopping

until I collapsed.

That is how I watched my mom deal with her pain.

I learned it well.

I want to be careful that I don’t judge her.

She didn’t have much to work with.

It’s easier for me

because of her (and others’) sacrifices.

  • The early women’s movement (pre70s?)
  • My grandmas both of ’em
  • My mother in some ways

🌻🌷🌻🌷🌻🌷🌻

the concept of rest is new for me

I want to learn about it.

here I am: God.

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