Good fast
chronic illness
Plan for weakness 💐
I figured it out:
Why I miss
whole…chunks…of…time
regarding planned activities:
I just now did it again;
and this time I was watching 👀.
Background info: Yesterday was a terrible health day: I was at Defcon 5 all day with a migraine. I tried everything and finally won. I was praying alllll day just to get through the next 15 minutes! I bet some of you guys can totally relate.
I was in constant dog-paddle, keepmynoseabovethewater-mode with Jesus and memorized scriptures. BTW: Don’t think I’m all spiritual and self-controlled: it called…
~ “s-u-r-v-i-v-a-l”
I feel encouraged.
I thought I was just shallow and lazy and that’s why I kept skipping whole days of planned devotions!
When this happens … I will just get back up and keep going with whatever it is that I have planned.
No more self-imposed flagelation.
Chronic illness: Do I have self-compassion?
Oh. My. Sparkly. Purple. Toesocks!!!
This post from #brainlessblogger: https://wp.me/p7MuDm-6Ik
hit me
exactly
100%
where I am.
Who SAYS the internet is only a 🔧 of the devil?! #OVERCOMEEVILWITHGOOD
#truth #courage-building #helpful #bethethingiwanttofind
Comfort-er 💐
INTIMACY – Jesus’ disciples had a very intimate relationship with Him which is why it would have been so hard to think of Him leaving.
Jesus knew this, but He also knew that the same level of intimacy would be available through the Helper who was coming.
The Holy Spirit is now,
God with us.
Literally making His home within us;
always available to go to,
sit with,
pray with,
and find encouragement.
The Holy Spirit should be the greatest encourager in any Christians life.
What I mean by this is
unlike the world who the Holy Spirit is convicting of sin,
for every believer,
the Holy Spirit is
reminding us of our true identity.
~ Pastorhogg.net
Early morning chutzpah 🌼🌸💮🏵🌼🌸
- Girlfriends asleep
- Family asleep
- Hubby asleep
- Dogs asleep
- Quiet house
- Flu-like autoimmune symptoms
- Already slept off my sleep aid
- Maxed~out on ibuprofen and Tylenol for today
Here I am Jesus: it’s just me and You.
I need You; that’s flat.
I remember others who are wakeful at 3am:
- inmate who is stuck with the choices he made when he was too young to know better
- mom of small ones. Who is up with a croupey baby again, has to get up for work in the morning, and is dreading it (*note; discover plod mode)
- cancer patient: sick of that inescapable, omnipresent too familiar bed
- prisoner in a foreign country, denied pain medication because “he is an unbeliever” (and therefore untouchable).
- homeless person whose newspapers and coats are not enough to keep him warm this time.
- psychiatric inpatient whose night mares make her fear sleep and who misses home
- care home patient ~ the empty ache of the seemingly forgotten
- woman post-abortion ~ empty arms
Can I pray 🙏 for us?
Jesus thank You for the good and the bad things in our lives. Thank You for small indestructible joys. Help us to get all the good there is to be had out of our suffering. Enlarge our souls to understand the great ocean 💙 of Your cleansing, pure, full, restoring love 💘 for us.
🦁 🦁 🦁 🦁 🦁
Grief is great. Let us be good to one another.
~The Magician’s Nephew
🦁 🦁 🦁 🦁 🦁
Chronic illness
🙏I was thinking with God about our difficult lives and all of the suffering that is our lot.
(Well, at least from my point of view. Our brothers and sisters who live in 3rd world or war torn countries would be laughing hysterically right now I guess.)
🙏it is so much easier to follow Jesus when I’m in pain, don’t you find?
.
Household work
I don’t have to or get to do those Homely tasks anymore.
Which I Found So inescapable.
Which I often dreaded.
Which I now miss
poignantly,
anxiously
heartbreakingly. 💔
which I took for granted
which made up So much of my self Concept
from which I found joy and utility and self worth.
I tell you sincerely:
Being sick for 10 years and
being confined to my bed for the most part
is very much like being in prison.
I gain much encouragement from Paul’s prison epistles.
#wannabethat
cook food for my family
Plan menus
Grocery shop
make cookies
Bake bread
Home school children.
Buy our clothes
Stock our pantry
Stock our medicine cabinet
do laundry.
Clean toilets and tubs and sinks and floors
yard work
canning and freezing
Gardening
Yard work
Wash dishes and wipe counters and stoves
Spring clean cupboards
Clean the fridge
Scrub the floor
Vacuum the carpets
Wash the car
Dust the shelves
Run family meetings
Make chore charts
I now get to :
pray
Go potty
Bathe myself when I must
Talk when I can
Sleep as much as my dogs
maintain a marriage
and Pray some more
That’s it.
The bright side?
It’s very easy to find quiet time now.
It takes heart ❤
Wow. Three days have gone by without me even looking at the Bible. It sneaks up on me…. YouTube sermons are ok and all, but its not the same as getting my own food, you know? ——
i avoid being quiet and talking to God because the stuff I am dealing with is yucky..then, when I get quiet enough to talk to God, it hurts!
I repent, God, 😞 for all the social media and comedy skits and candy crush and Scrabble…
Which I have used to drown out my pain.
I want to run 🏃♂️ into Your arms …
not to Comedy Central or reruns of Monk. Or Scrabble.
———- loneliness shame depression discouragement powerlessness rejection——–
Jesus give me
The COURAGE
to go there
and to go all the way
with You.
Internal boundary 🌷
Giving myself eight more minutes to work on this problem.
Then it’s going to go in my
- someoneelsesproblem box
- or my God box
- or my later box
- or all three.
🌷🌻🌷🌻🌷🌻🌷🌻🌷
I am not freaked out
I am adequately stable at the moment ,
not in imminent danger of being suicidal ,
not inordinately vulnerable to outside stressors.
Come to think of it those are all good things
thatbeing sick
for eight years have given me.
🎁 🌈 🎁 🌈 🎁 🌈 🎁 🌈 🎁
