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I love Abide sleep meditations.  Today, they included Psalm 23   I was thinking about this psalm.  I memorized it, as a child, in the King James Version and I find it comforting to remember the words in the same way. A phrase jumped out at me this time:   … through the valley of the… Continue reading 💣💣 coping 💣💣

Bloom. 💐

I know why the caged bird sings. ~Maya Angelou

Getting sick. 

Has given me many good things. 

The elemental suffering has brought much good. 

takes away my busyness.

forces me to slow down. 

Edelweiss

Flesh mortifying.  

Clarity inducing.  

Raised to life. 

Priorities straightening.  

Do or die

Sink or swim

Blooming. 🌼

watching my figure ❤

Ive started to feel better. Thanks to all the granola hippie stuff I’ve been doing for ten years. And God. And the magic of James 5:17.

I love to bake! I haven’t been able to do it much the last ten years.

So…..I bought a scale and put in my bathroom and I try to weigh myself whenever I feel thin (so I don’t get upset and depressed and eat a whole bunch!) Right?

Well, I got busy (!!!) And didn’t weigh myself.

For three weeks.

Dah…dah…duuuuun…..I’ve gained. Ten pounds!

I want to be more religious about weighing myself often. (It’s easier to deal with when it’s 2 lbs!)

What I’ve decided to do is something that I read about in a book (it was a mystery novel I think). I’m going to pick a cheat day. And that is the only day that I can eat whatever I want. I already have been doing intermittent fasting so my eating 4 p.m. to 9 p.m.

So….,yeah: time to deny my flesh.

This is good for me; I don’t want to be bossed around by my appetites, right? I (with God) call the shots!

R*E*S*P*E*C*T

I have a strong personality. This is an established fact.

I can be “bossy”.

“opinionated”.

“determined”.

Super-choleric~melancholy

Thank You, PapaGod, for this gift that saved me from my abuse-and-crime-ridden family;
and that has also made my adult life so difficult. As a mom. As a wife. As a friend. 💔

Thank You for being every bit as ornery as me, but for the good.

I respect You. 💕

“Our fathers disciplined us for a little to while the best they could (and it was not that great sometimes)

“But God disciplines us for our good
That we may share in his holiness.” Heb 12 emphasis mine

Plan for weakness 💐

I figured it out:

Why I miss

whole…chunks…of…time

regarding planned activities:

I just now did it again;

and this time I was watching 👀.

Background info: Yesterday was a terrible health day: I was at Defcon 5 all day with a migraine. I tried everything and finally won. I was praying alllll day just to get through the next 15 minutes! I bet some of you guys can totally relate.

I was in constant dog-paddle, keepmynoseabovethewater-mode with Jesus and memorized scriptures. BTW: Don’t think I’m all spiritual and self-controlled: it called…

~ “s-u-r-v-i-v-a-l”

I feel encouraged.

I thought I was just shallow and lazy and that’s why I kept skipping whole days of planned devotions!

When this happens … I will just get back up and keep going with whatever it is that I have planned.

No more self-imposed flagelation.

Chronic illness: Do I have self-compassion?

Oh. My. Sparkly. Purple. Toesocks!!!


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Comfort-er 💐

INTIMACY – Jesus’ disciples had a very intimate relationship with Him which is why it would have been so hard to think of Him leaving.

Jesus knew this, but He also knew that the same level of intimacy would be available through the Helper who was coming.

The Holy Spirit is now,

God with us.

Literally making His home within us;

always available to go to,

sit with,

pray with,

and find encouragement.

The Holy Spirit should be the greatest encourager in any Christians life.

What I mean by this is

unlike the world who the Holy Spirit is convicting of sin,

for every believer,

the Holy Spirit is

reminding us of our true identity.

~ Pastorhogg.net

The Holy Spirit is now

Early morning chutzpah 🌼🌸💮🏵🌼🌸

So be it 😌
  • Girlfriends asleep
  • Family asleep
  • Hubby asleep
  • Dogs asleep
  • Quiet house
  • Flu-like autoimmune symptoms
  • Already slept off my sleep aid
  • Maxed~out on ibuprofen and Tylenol for today

Here I am Jesus: it’s just me and You.

I need You;  that’s flat.

I remember others who are wakeful at 3am:

  1. inmate who is stuck with the choices he made when he was too young to know better
  2. mom of small ones. Who is up with a croupey baby again, has to get up for work in the morning, and is dreading it (*note; discover plod mode)
  3. cancer patient: sick of that inescapable, omnipresent too familiar bed
  4. prisoner in a foreign country, denied pain medication because “he is an unbeliever” (and therefore untouchable).
  5. homeless person whose newspapers and coats are not enough to keep him warm this time.
  6. psychiatric inpatient whose night mares make her fear sleep and who misses home
  7. care home patient ~ the empty ache of the seemingly forgotten
  8. woman post-abortion ~ empty arms

Can I pray 🙏 for us?

Jesus thank You for the good and the bad things in our lives. Thank You for small indestructible joys. Help us to get all the good there is to be had out of our suffering. Enlarge our souls to understand the great ocean 💙 of Your cleansing, pure, full, restoring love 💘 for us.

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Grief is great. Let us be good to one another.

~The Magician’s Nephew

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