Tag: child abuse
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The underdog
I’m glad I’m on this side of the abuse–as the victim, not on the other side–as the perpetrator, 💐 💐 💐 💐 💐 (And that God has Grace for me too–when I’m the one who messed up.)
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Parent guilt 😔 😟 🙁 😥 😞
The accuser likes to shame me about stuff I’ve done wrong with my DID. like leaving my son at the bank for two hours when he was ten and buying a gross of light bulbs across town before I woke up. Like losing my temper and shaking my daughter when she was in middle school […]
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‘Cause I got ISSues🌼
I wrote this about a year ago. Found it today. I thought it might help someone else with their stuff. I know it helped me! I started to read a devotional yesterday, from my youbible. I’m just now getting back from Trigger Land. Rough day for my family. Rough day for me. (I know. I need […]
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Reboot my ❤
New memories. Flashback nightmare last night. Father I need a refuge right now. A safe, protected place, where I can sleep and eat and rest Then go back and fight. You are my bunker. My bivouac. (Sp?) My safe place. My good jou jou. Hide me under your wings for a little. Don’t let me […]
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Flashback nightmare
Jesus I feel so ashamed and traumatized and worthless. Save me. Save the innocents whom I have let down. Their faces haunt me! Come. Holy Spirit I need You now. Everyone I know is asleep or busy getting ready for work. My hubby was at work hours ago. I called my dogs in to lay […]
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It had to happen
Inevitable. Hubby and I were on a date, and there she was ~ our son`s new mom. 💔 Our son might have been there too; we don’t know. He’s in college somewhere, I think. Maybe he went back to the car when he saw us; maybe we could have seen him. We just don’t know. […]
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Relapse part 4: self-forgiveness
Self forgiveness. It’s a lot harder than forgiving one’s own perpetrators, don’t you think? Forgiving myself Has come down to a bald choice for me. I have all the power. I can refuse myself forgiveness. Or not. It seems like it should be easier than it is Because I am not directly to blame… because I […]
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Rough Season– don’t you think?
I’m surprised we’re still here, aren’t you? I have now listened to the Ps 121, Ps 37, Ps 18 and\or Rick Warren, Joyce Meyer, Beth Moore, RT Kendall, Steven Furtick and a bunch of other sermons and scripture. Roughly 32 billion times. Conclusion…we are going to make it guys. strengthandcourage.That is what I am talking […]
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Toxic family
I love that Jesus teaches me how to think about well-meaning but toxic folks. He modeled it. And the people became offended and began to turn against him. Jesus said, “There’s only one place a prophet isn’t honored—his own hometown!”Matthew 13:57 TPThttps://bible.com/bible/1849/mat.13.57.TPT And if anyone doesn’t listen to you and rejects your message, when you […]
reboot my ❤ 