Tag: child abuse

• Not like my dad

  strawberry0043

  May 1, 2022

  recovery, S.R.A. And D.I.D. Recovery

  attitude adjustment ❤ coping, ❤prayer, be the thing I want to find, child abuse, child neglect, Childhood trauma, SRA addiction abuse

• Reboot my ❤

  New memories. Flashback nightmare last night. Father I need a refuge right now. A safe, protected place, where I can sleep and eat and rest Then go back and fight. You are my bunker. My bivouac. (Sp?) My safe place. My good jou jou. Hide me under your wings for a little. Don’t let me […]

  strawberry0043

  December 28, 2021

  mental health or veterans issues, modern life, nightmares, S.R.A. And D.I.D. Recovery

  abuse survivors, ❤prayer, Be kind to yourself, child abandonment, child abuse, child neglect, church hurts and healing, coping, counseling, courage, DID PTSD flashbacks veterans mental health

• Flashback nightmare

  Jesus I feel so ashamed and traumatized and worthless. Save me. Save the innocents whom I have let down. Their faces haunt me! Come. Holy Spirit I need You now. Everyone I know is asleep or busy getting ready for work. My hubby was at work hours ago. I called my dogs in to lay […]

  strawberry0043

  October 29, 2021

  desert of the soul, DID, PTSD, flash back recovery

  12 steps, Abuse, Accepting tragedy, Ammends, ❤prayer, can’t be silent, child abandonment, child abuse, child neglect, Christian life

• It had to happen

  Inevitable. Hubby and I were on a date, and there she was ~ our son`s new mom. 💔 Our son might have been there too; we don’t know. He’s in college somewhere, I think. Maybe he went back to the car when he saw us; maybe we could have seen him. We just don’t know. […]

  strawberry0043

  August 21, 2021

  death of or prodigal child

  Accepting tragedy, child abandonment, child abuse, Childhood trauma, Christian life, depression, divorce, dysfunctional family; Nitty-gritty, grief, life after rejection, seeing my ex for the first time

• Relapse part 4: self-forgiveness

  Self forgiveness. It’s a lot harder than forgiving one’s own perpetrators, don’t you think? Forgiving myself Has come down to a bald choice for me.  I have all the power. I can refuse myself forgiveness. Or not. It seems like it should be easier than it is  Because I am not directly to blame… because I […]

  strawberry0043

  July 8, 2021

  recovery

  child abandonment, child abuse, child neglect, Christian life, Forgiving a perpetrator, Forgiving God, forgiving myself, Grieving

• Rough Season– don’t you think?

  

   I’m surprised we’re still here, aren’t you? I have now listened to the Ps 121, Ps 37, Ps 18 and\or Rick Warren, Joyce Meyer, Beth Moore, RT Kendall, Steven Furtick and a bunch of other sermons and scripture. Roughly 32 billion times. Conclusion…we are going to make it guys.  strengthandcourage.That is what I am talking […]

  strawberry0043

  April 4, 2021

  attitude, Christian life

  12 steps, 2021, Accepting tragedy, amends, attitude adjustment, Autoimmune stuff, be the thing I want to find, Bible, Bible trials, child abuse, Childhood trauma, church hurts and healing, coping, Coronavirus, counseling, courage, dealing with tragedy, death of it prodigal child, death of or prodigal child, depression, Difficult marriage, Dysfunctional families, dysfunctional family; Nitty-gritty, encouraging mySELF, faith, family, Family ostracism, forgiving an offender, forgiving myself, grief, Guilty, healing, hearing 👂from God, heart problems, hope, interrupted, issues, Jesus is a boss, learning to be kind to myself, life as it is, loneliness, longing, loss, love, Low self-esteem, making peace; dysfunctional family; grief;rejection;fear, Mental illness, mercy, midlife issues, millennial issues, millennial parenting, Modern parenting, mothering issues, mothering mistakes, MS; making peace; dysfunctional family; grief; terminal illness;rejection;fear, negative experiences, neglect or abuse, One income in a two income economy, overachiever, pacemaker, parenting adult kids, parenting after blowing it, parenting millineals, perfectionism, personality types, Philippians 2, Philippians 4:8, prodigals, quarantine, racial tension, rape, Recovery thankful renew your mind, refreshment, religious abuse, renew your mind, Repentance

• Toxic family

  I love that Jesus teaches me how to think about well-meaning but toxic folks. He modeled it. And the people became offended and began to turn against him. Jesus said, “There’s only one place a prophet isn’t honored—his own hometown!”Matthew 13:57 TPThttps://bible.com/bible/1849/mat.13.57.TPT And if anyone doesn’t listen to you and rejects your message, when you […]

  strawberry0043

  November 10, 2020

  recovery

  abuse survivors, Anxiety, attitude, attitude adjustment 😜coping, Bible, Bible trials, child abuse, Childhood trauma, Christian life, church hurts, conflicts, coping, Dysfunctional families, encouraging mySELF, family, Family ostracism, fathers, forgiving an offender, Jesus rocks prettymuch, making peace; dysfunctional family; grief;rejection;fear, MS; making peace; dysfunctional family; grief; terminal illness;rejection;fear, My past, new attitude, Ostracism, parenting, parenting after blowing it, Parenting mistakes

• Flash back recovery

  I went to sleep worried about my closely related offender, and feeling guilty for unfriending him.  His life is so pathetic and sad!  You know? It’s complicated when you grew up with your offender. I’ve always felt super responsible for this person.  I know how bad it was for us growing up:  I was there. […]

  strawberry0043

  October 22, 2020

  recovery

  child abuse, Christian life, dysfunctional family, finding peace, flashbacks, forgiving an offender, nightmares, ritual abuse