Things to love 💘

Blueberries, frozen: like mini Popsicles
Wildflowers
Emma Thompson movies
Yarmulkas (sp?)
New recipes 😋
Porridge with butter, raisins and milk
Movie night 🎥 🍿
Monopoly money 💰

give thanks in all circumstances; 
for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.

1 Thessalonians 5:18 NIVUK
https://bible.com/bible/113/1th.5.18.NIVUK
Cozy

It takes heart ❤

Wow. Three days have gone by without me even looking at the Bible. It sneaks up on me…. YouTube sermons are ok and all, but its not the same as getting my own food, you know? ——

i avoid being quiet and talking to God because the stuff I am dealing with is yucky..then, when I get quiet enough to talk to God, it hurts!

  I repent, God, 😞 for all the social media and comedy skits and candy crush and Scrabble…
Which I have used to drown out my pain.
I want to run 🏃‍♂️ into Your arms …
not to Comedy Central or reruns of Monk. Or Scrabble.

———- loneliness shame depression discouragement powerlessness rejection——–

Jesus give me

The COURAGE

to go there

and to go all the way

with You.

Give me a Quiet Soul

Trust the process

 fact: Forgiving my child’s offender 

was much harder 

than forgiving my own offender.

 (And that was almost undoable. I’m not sure it’s completely done even now.I kind of have to redo it every time I think about this guy.)

#chipawayatit 

#lifetimejourney 

 With men this is impossible, but with God all things are possible. –Jesus

Saying sorry 

It’s complicated.

Ammends.

Ugh.

I’m working my steps here.  But…

What Is Step 9?

Step 9 begins:

“Make direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.”*

…my grown kids are a toughie.

They are ssssoooo tired of hearing me say “I’m sorry”.

Because I have often used that statement in the past to excuse and ask for absolution.

* I copied this from a very helpful article by buddy t  at verywellmind.com

So I’m trying to get a new way of saying Sorry.

By helping others

By helping and not hating myself

By praying for my kids and grands every day

By watching 👀 for opportunities to do good that do not take credit or manipulate.

By being the thing I wish I had

Innocent and cheerful

Relentless but not pushy, just infectious

quirky Optimism

Forgiveness …forgiven… forgiving

Let it go.

Make room for love