Plan for weakness 💐

I figured it out:

Why I miss

whole…chunks…of…time

regarding planned activities:

I just now did it again;

and this time I was watching 👀.

Background info: Yesterday was a terrible health day: I was at Defcon 5 all day with a migraine. I tried everything and finally won. I was praying alllll day just to get through the next 15 minutes! I bet some of you guys can totally relate.

I was in constant dog-paddle, keepmynoseabovethewater-mode with Jesus and memorized scriptures. BTW: Don’t think I’m all spiritual and self-controlled: it called…

~ “s-u-r-v-i-v-a-l”

I feel encouraged.

I thought I was just shallow and lazy and that’s why I kept skipping whole days of planned devotions!

When this happens … I will just get back up and keep going with whatever it is that I have planned.

No more self-imposed flagelation.

Comfort-er 💐

INTIMACY – Jesus’ disciples had a very intimate relationship with Him which is why it would have been so hard to think of Him leaving.

Jesus knew this, but He also knew that the same level of intimacy would be available through the Helper who was coming.

The Holy Spirit is now,

God with us.

Literally making His home within us;

always available to go to,

sit with,

pray with,

and find encouragement.

The Holy Spirit should be the greatest encourager in any Christians life.

What I mean by this is

unlike the world who the Holy Spirit is convicting of sin,

for every believer,

the Holy Spirit is

reminding us of our true identity.

~ Pastorhogg.net

The Holy Spirit is now

Bulldozerish

Q and I tried to go out for coffee this morning .

He wanted to push me in my manual chair, for the exercise:bad idea💡. It was approximately 3000° F!

We couldn’t find a way to get across 99W to the coffee place `cuz of construction.

Furthermore, Q was feeling uncomfortable and socially awkward (I think that’s his bipolar disorder).

So….. I suggested we just turn around and…go…home.

We had a glass of milk 🥛 🍪 instead.

I think it was good for Q and I both to see that he and his feelings are more important to me than getting a coffee or my expectations.

Very un-bulldozer-ish.

That’s a new skill for me. I credit Jesus and my husband, in that order.

Photo by Felix Mittermeier on Pexels.com

Breakthrough! I am thankful.

It takes heart ❤

Wow. Three days have gone by without me even looking at the Bible. It sneaks up on me…. YouTube sermons are ok and all, but its not the same as getting my own food, you know? ——

i avoid being quiet and talking to God because the stuff I am dealing with is yucky..then, when I get quiet enough to talk to God, it hurts!

  I repent, God, 😞 for all the social media and comedy skits and candy crush and Scrabble…
Which I have used to drown out my pain.
I want to run 🏃‍♂️ into Your arms …
not to Comedy Central or reruns of Monk. Or Scrabble.

———- loneliness shame depression discouragement powerlessness rejection——–

Jesus give me

The COURAGE

to go there

and to go all the way

with You.

Give me a Quiet Soul

Rough Season– don’t you think?

 I’m surprised we’re still here, aren’t you?

I have now listened to the Ps 121, Ps 37, Ps 18 and\or Rick Warren, Joyce Meyer, Beth Moore, RT Kendall, Steven Furtick and a bunch of other sermons and scripture.

Roughly 32 billion times.

i love 💕 it

Conclusion…we are going to make it guys. 

strengthandcourage.That is what I am talking about.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. That’s in 2 Corinthians.

#gonnamakeit

God is not going to overestimate my stress capacity.  He’s got the specs…….

For my soul.

The Bible says “He formed my inward parts in the secret places”  ps 139.  That has got to include capacity indications.

Like I know how many corn dogs my kids will eat when I’m cooking. Like I know how much ⛽ to put in my car when I’m filling it.

I have to start by giving it to Jesus

asking for His help just to breathe.

trust God.

He’s got the specs:

Help me Lighten up, Lord

Jesus bless and help each person
who stops by for just a pair of minutes.

We love 💕 Your words.

We love You.

But help us. It’s hard down here sometimes.

But You knew that.
You came down here.

I remember now. 😉


I’m asking for a hug today, Lord.

I mean that respectfully.

Especially during this pandemic, we need You.

We’re somewhat desperate.

Help us lighten up and not take ourselves so seriously.

We need a good Dad telling us that it will all work out.

Not liable

Jesus thank You for

c-a-r-e- ing

about

my MS and

my heart problems and

my mental illness and

my parenting failures. 


I want You.
d-e-s-p-e-r-a-t-e-ly

It helps that my life is so difficult for me. 

I’m not tempted to be satisfied with it. 

Not EVEN a choice

If I was

Effortlessly beautiful and

Incredibly popular and

Eminently successful and

had a million dollars…

I would probably focus on that.
Thank You 💗.

As it is, I’m not liable to focus on how easy my life is. (How boring is easy, anyway? I need to be c-h-a-l-l-e-n-g-e-d.)

You’ve saved my life, God. And made it beautiful ❤️.

Thank You.

Toxic family

I love that Jesus teaches me how to think about well-meaning but toxic folks.

He modeled it.

And the people became offended and began to turn against him. Jesus said, “There’s only one place a prophet isn’t honored—his own hometown!”
Matthew 13:57 TPT
https://bible.com/bible/1849/mat.13.57.TPT

And if anyone doesn’t listen to you and rejects your message, when you leave that house or town, shake the dust off your feet as a prophetic act that you will not take their defilement with you.
Matthew 10:14 TPT
https://bible.com/bible/1849/mat.10.14.TPT