I know why the caged bird sings. ~Maya Angelou
Has given me many good things.
The elemental suffering has brought much good.
takes away my busyness.
forces me to slow down.
Raised to life.
Do or die
Sink or swim
I bless my lonely life. It is teaching me to go deep with You Yahweh. You are the God who sees me.
And btw God–thank you for kitties. They are so mysterious and solitary and can be happy anywhere.
🐈 have this cozy “zone” inside of them.
They curl up in a ball…close their eyes and zap!…they become the epitome of cozy. It’s like a special dimension that they are magically transported to.
Instructive thought, isn’t it. 💐
Ive started to feel better. Thanks to all the granola hippie stuff I’ve been doing for ten years. And God. And the magic of James 5:17.
I love to bake! I haven’t been able to do it much the last ten years.
So…..I bought a scale and put in my bathroom and I try to weigh myself whenever I feel thin (so I don’t get upset and depressed and eat a whole bunch!) Right?
Well, I got busy (!!!) And didn’t weigh myself.
For three weeks.
Dah…dah…duuuuun…..I’ve gained. Ten pounds!
I want to be more religious about weighing myself often. (It’s easier to deal with when it’s 2 lbs!)
What I’ve decided to do is something that I read about in a book (it was a mystery novel I think). I’m going to pick a cheat day. And that is the only day that I can eat whatever I want. I already have been doing intermittent fasting so my eating 4 p.m. to 9 p.m.
So….,yeah: time to deny my flesh.
This is good for me; I don’t want to be bossed around by my appetites, right? I (with God) call the shots!
As I get older
and especially as I have been in bed for 10 years
while my friends must go on without me
and really had to go to the mattresses with God (pun intended)
and spend a lot of time alone with Him
I’m getting to where I have
sense of well-being that is all through my slice of life.
Jesus thank You for quiet, humble, simple, instructive
it strips away nonsense.
It forces the issue.
It uncovers truth.
I look to You.
are all my reasons.
I am up with my stuff tonight. I opened my Youversion app and this was the first. I love/hate/love being sick.
Pedal to the metal.
Fish 🐟 🐠 🎣 or cut bait.
Do or die.
No kidding around.
I COULD NOT DO THIS without You God. 💐
I need to blog this. I’m not the only one up hurting tonight.
I told God:
It’s ok for me to suffer
because then my priorities
are straight and true.
I am not good with prosperity so far. I’m learning.
I decided I’m like 98% okay with being sick
I wouldn’t trade being healthy and able to do things
for all the spiritual wisdom and
unlooked for changes
that God and me have made over the last several years
getting sick IS your healing
I figured it out:
Why I miss
regarding planned activities:
I just now did it again;
and this time I was watching 👀.
Background info: Yesterday was a terrible health day: I was at Defcon 5 all day with a migraine. I tried everything and finally won. I was praying alllll day just to get through the next 15 minutes! I bet some of you guys can totally relate.
I was in constant dog-paddle, keepmynoseabovethewater-mode with Jesus and memorized scriptures. BTW: Don’t think I’m all spiritual and self-controlled: it called…
I feel encouraged.
I thought I was just shallow and lazy and that’s why I kept skipping whole days of planned devotions!
When this happens … I will just get back up and keep going with whatever it is that I have planned.
No more self-imposed flagelation.