Why is there suffering?

Hmmm…good point.

Father, help me to focus on You. I don’t understand why things don’t work sometimes.

Why have I been sick for seven-ish years? You could heal me in a snap. I’ve certainly asked You often enough.

I remember that all You said was: getting sick IS your healing. (However that works ~ but You have NO trouble getting Your point across, do You.)

I trust You.

I love 💘 You Jesus.

You are the most amazing beautiful wise humble Person

I’ve ever met

and I am smitten.

Resilience

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The plant prefers rocky limestone places at about 1,800–3,000 metres altitude.

It is non-toxic and has been used in traditional medicine as a remedy against abdominal and respiratory diseases. Wikipedia

Jesus help me to be tough and hard to kill. Hardy.

Resilient.

My row to hoe 💐

Up hurting over parenting stuff. 3am.

Jesus You know: You were there. You are here now. You will never leave me or forsake me, right? Right.

I am rebooting my ❤ now. Please. Speak to me and make me. Feel comfortable again.

  • Sunshine on my face.
  • Like a golden blessing from life.
  • Warm
  • encouraging
  • quiet
  • peaceful
  • happy.
  • My Cats and dogs bathe in pools of it.
  • Excellent idea.
  • I’ll take it
Youversion nails it

Thank you Jesus Sir Wonderful 🙏🙌❤😊

Who’s sleeping right now?

You know who you are. ❤

God: I have a new pain in my head. 

It is 2:40 am.  Everyone is sleeping in my house. 

I just asked You for the strength to get dressed and get up to take some organifi.  It’s all I could think to do.

Im scared that MS is forming a new schlerosis in the posterior left of my brain.

Up an c dressed, i found that my young adult son happened to be up and have some water ❤ ready to stir the organifi powder into. ( He was just going to drink it, I assume. ….Wait…. That’s rather remarkable, God. The timing. Wow.)

I’m so sick of all the chemicals which well-meaning but ignorant modern medicine folks are pushing at me because of my disease!  Help me.  Jesus rescue me! 

You know what I need.  What plants will help.  Tell me.

I keep hearing Brain Derived Neurotropic Factor.  BDNF.  from Organifi.  ok…Help me to afford this Lord.  My hubby has not wanted to let us spend this money.  My insurance won’t pay for alternative meds.  (Though they will pay for the shots at $6000 a month which have all kinds of side effects. Thin Smile.)  I think it is $80 a month for the BDNF.  PLEASE provide this for me God.

Also: the message at church ⛪ yesterday! ( Elevationchurch.org guest speaker ~ 1st Sunday in September) 

  THANKYOU. 

I felt like it was just for me.  I feel like I’m in a solitary battle for my family and my health.  I feel kinda picked on, in truth.

  i declare this: I’m not picked ON but rather picked OUT.

Just for right now, the organifi nutrition is helping:  my head pain is lessening.

getting sleepy.  I will take my ashwaganda Valerian gummies. Just a sec…..

Not panicking.   What’s the worst thing that can happen?  OK.  I’m imagining that.  Now I’m putting You in that picture.  ❤

I can do this.  This is how I fight my battles. 

New courage

Thank you Jesus.   Help all the sick people and lonely people and sad people who are up facing battles alone, too, tonight. 

Thanks for your

sweet

kind

strong

presence with us.

Each person that wants You.  

Because Jesus
Kicked the devils face in ~ beating him at his own game.  at Calvary.   (Gen. 3 ~ He [the Offspring] will crush his [the devil] head and he [evil] will bruise Your heel… emphasis mine)


JESUS.   GOD WITH US.  EMMANUEL. 

You are the God who sees me. 
I love You ….. so I’m not alone. 

No matter who’s sleeping right now.

Things to 💕

  • Moonlight and Roses, performed by Jim Reeves; played that record every time I visited my Grandma Dodson when I was a kid.
  • Cotton candy stands at the County Fair. I liked the pink flavor.
  • Big band music and warm summer evenings
  • Quiet morning, sunshine, camping, bird song
  • Drive in movies, popcorn 🍿🎥
  • looking through old photos
  • Striped toe socks
  • Barrettes
  • Always Discreet Underwear – just keeping it real
  • Wendy’s 4 for 4
  • Green eye liner ✏️
  • Homemade casseroles 🥘

Good grief 🙄

🙏 so…I have started thinking about my friendships, right?

This might be TMI. You have been warned.

Who do I like? Who loves God? Who sees the world like I do?
Which people can I help 🤔 ? Who could maybe help me back?
Can I manage a visit with my health?
So yesterday, I asked an acquaintance out for ☕.


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This friend and I did a car date because I was too tired 😫 to get out of the vehicle. She works with special needs people so she probably got it. Actually, I think it was her idea.

It was so fun, you guys!!
We went to Dutch Bros and got ☕ then a park
We talked and talked.

But then ….. dah dah dummm……💩poosplosion. Oh no!
It was everywhere! It was uncontrollable!

At least I didn’t get it in her car.

At least my discreet undies did their job.

At least it held off ’til I was in my house trying to say goodbye.


However, ⛅ of flies were following me into my bedroom, .

It was mortifying

Now : I have avoided this person for days.

This is dysfunctional, I am aware of that fact, thank you very much.

TODAY, I will beard the lion and see if we can get over this.

Wish me luck!