Woooord. Pastor Mike!

“Most of us spend so much time hating things about ourselves that we don’t realize we’re crippling our ability to love others.

There’s no way you can figure out how to love somebody else well in a relationship if you have not first figured out how to love yourself. ” ~pastor Michael Todd

Oh My Socks, you guys!

I definitely had an aha moment.

with Jesus.

this morning.

because of this.

the reason ~ well one reason ~ I have so much trouble loving my neighbor is because I don’t like myself.

However…I am getting better!

it has been extremely difficult for me to forgive myself for some of my parenting mistakes.

Like I said: I’m working on it with Jesus and I have definitely found that,

as I’m learning to forgive myself.

and love myself.

and give myself a break,

and move on….

I am becoming a better parent and friend and wife and child.

My row to hoe 💐

Up hurting over parenting stuff. 3am.

Jesus You know: You were there. You are here now. You will never leave me or forsake me, right? Right.

I am rebooting my ❤ now. Please. Speak to me and make me. Feel comfortable again.

  • Sunshine on my face.
  • Like a golden blessing from life.
  • Warm
  • encouraging
  • quiet
  • peaceful
  • happy.
  • My Cats and dogs bathe in pools of it.
  • Excellent idea.
  • I’ll take it
Youversion nails it

Thank you Jesus Sir Wonderful 🙏🙌❤😊

Plan for weakness 💐

I figured it out:

Why I miss

whole…chunks…of…time

regarding planned activities:

I just now did it again;

and this time I was watching 👀.

Background info: Yesterday was a terrible health day: I was at Defcon 5 all day with a migraine. I tried everything and finally won. I was praying alllll day just to get through the next 15 minutes! I bet some of you guys can totally relate.

I was in constant dog-paddle, keepmynoseabovethewater-mode with Jesus and memorized scriptures. BTW: Don’t think I’m all spiritual and self-controlled: it called…

~ “s-u-r-v-i-v-a-l”

I feel encouraged.

I thought I was just shallow and lazy and that’s why I kept skipping whole days of planned devotions!

When this happens … I will just get back up and keep going with whatever it is that I have planned.

No more self-imposed flagelation.

Stayontarget!

Remember that scene from Star wars The empire fights back where they’re trying to get a shot off into the heart of the death Star?

All these pilots are crashing and burning and dying and the leader keeps saying stay on target 🎯🎯🎯 then Luke finally gets a shot off

Luke finally blows up the death star,
by turning off his targeting computer, and using the force.

I was reminded of that scene when I found this verse.

“You rightly instruct us in how to live ever faithful to you….”

“You are right and you do right, God ; your decisions are right on target.

https://bible.com/bible/97/psa.119.137-144.MSG

Good grief 🙄

🙏 so…I have started thinking about my friendships, right?

This might be TMI. You have been warned.

Who do I like? Who loves God? Who sees the world like I do?
Which people can I help 🤔 ? Who could maybe help me back?
Can I manage a visit with my health?
So yesterday, I asked an acquaintance out for ☕.


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This friend and I did a car date because I was too tired 😫 to get out of the vehicle. She works with special needs people so she probably got it. Actually, I think it was her idea.

It was so fun, you guys!!
We went to Dutch Bros and got ☕ then a park
We talked and talked.

But then ….. dah dah dummm……💩poosplosion. Oh no!
It was everywhere! It was uncontrollable!

At least I didn’t get it in her car.

At least my discreet undies did their job.

At least it held off ’til I was in my house trying to say goodbye.


However, ⛅ of flies were following me into my bedroom, .

It was mortifying

Now : I have avoided this person for days.

This is dysfunctional, I am aware of that fact, thank you very much.

TODAY, I will beard the lion and see if we can get over this.

Wish me luck!

Reboot my ❤


I’m thankful:

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vegetables 😋 all the colors and textures!

Forgiveness that sets me free. #overcomeevilwithgood

Crayons–a new clean box. The smell. Burnt sienna. Goldenrod. Turquoise. Silver. Brick. Magenta. True red.

Clean bathrooms and kitchens.

Lemon 🍋 oil

Email–how did we function without this?

Queen Anne’s Lace

tulips

clean, quiet pools

early morning bird song

quiet gray Dawn so full of promise

baking cookies

Epsom salt bath

Kitty purrs and soft fur

my Collie’s trusting liquid Brown honest gaze