Why is there suffering?

Hmmm…good point.

Father, help me to focus on You. I don’t understand why things don’t work sometimes.

Why have I been sick for seven-ish years? You could heal me in a snap. I’ve certainly asked You often enough.

I remember that all You said was: getting sick IS your healing. (However that works ~ but You have NO trouble getting Your point across, do You.)

I trust You.

I love 💘 You Jesus.

You are the most amazing beautiful wise humble Person

I’ve ever met

and I am smitten.

My row to hoe 💐

Up hurting over parenting stuff. 3am.

Jesus You know: You were there. You are here now. You will never leave me or forsake me, right? Right.

I am rebooting my ❤ now. Please. Speak to me and make me. Feel comfortable again.

  • Sunshine on my face.
  • Like a golden blessing from life.
  • Warm
  • encouraging
  • quiet
  • peaceful
  • happy.
  • My Cats and dogs bathe in pools of it.
  • Excellent idea.
  • I’ll take it
Youversion nails it

Thank you Jesus Sir Wonderful 🙏🙌❤😊

Safe 🌷

I lift up my eyes to you, to you who sit enthroned in heaven. As the eyes of slaves look to the hand of their master, as the eyes of a female slave look to the hand of her mistress, so our eyes look to the Lord our God, till he shows us his mercy.
Psalms 123:1‭-‬2 NIVUK

Things to 💕

  • Moonlight and Roses, performed by Jim Reeves; played that record every time I visited my Grandma Dodson when I was a kid.
  • Cotton candy stands at the County Fair. I liked the pink flavor.
  • Big band music and warm summer evenings
  • Quiet morning, sunshine, camping, bird song
  • Drive in movies, popcorn 🍿🎥
  • looking through old photos
  • Striped toe socks
  • Barrettes
  • Always Discreet Underwear – just keeping it real
  • Wendy’s 4 for 4
  • Green eye liner ✏️
  • Homemade casseroles 🥘

Different 🌼

There is not in the world a kind of life more sweet and delightful than that of a continual conversation with God.
~ Brother Lawrence

My dad was a negative, impatient person. He had a personality disorder, i think, looking back.

This fact has colored how I relate to God; i was reminded of this during my devotions today.

Father, thank You for showing me that You are not like that. Help me to learn to trust 🙏 and not be afraid of the other shoe dropping.

Good grief 🙄

🙏 so…I have started thinking about my friendships, right?

This might be TMI. You have been warned.

Who do I like? Who loves God? Who sees the world like I do?
Which people can I help 🤔 ? Who could maybe help me back?
Can I manage a visit with my health?
So yesterday, I asked an acquaintance out for ☕.


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This friend and I did a car date because I was too tired 😫 to get out of the vehicle. She works with special needs people so she probably got it. Actually, I think it was her idea.

It was so fun, you guys!!
We went to Dutch Bros and got ☕ then a park
We talked and talked.

But then ….. dah dah dummm……💩poosplosion. Oh no!
It was everywhere! It was uncontrollable!

At least I didn’t get it in her car.

At least my discreet undies did their job.

At least it held off ’til I was in my house trying to say goodbye.


However, ⛅ of flies were following me into my bedroom, .

It was mortifying

Now : I have avoided this person for days.

This is dysfunctional, I am aware of that fact, thank you very much.

TODAY, I will beard the lion and see if we can get over this.

Wish me luck!