Tag: Ammends
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Flashback nightmare
Jesus I feel so ashamed and traumatized and worthless. Save me. Save the innocents whom I have let down. Their faces haunt me! Come. Holy Spirit I need You now. Everyone I know is asleep or busy getting ready for work. My hubby was at work hours ago. I called my dogs in to lay […]
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My row to hoe 💐
Up hurting over parenting stuff. 3am. Jesus You know: You were there. You are here now. You will never leave me or forsake me, right? Right. I am rebooting my ❤ now. Please. Speak to me and make me. Feel comfortable again. Sunshine on my face. Like a golden blessing from life. Warm encouraging quiet […]
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Processing…
Some kids that I care about are making bad choices right now. I know Jesus will not blow sunshine about this.He will tell me the truth. Not everything that my kids do as adults is about me But some of it is. I did make some really bad mistakes Especially when the twins (child #4 […]
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Feel the burn
Lord GodI have some horrible things in my past.Things that were done to me. That I knew about. That I was powerless to stop.*************** Things that i did, myself. Blindly. Foolishly. Arrogantly. To my shame. To my sorrow.*************** You know. You were sorta THERE, however that works with sin. Can I pray for us? “PapaGod-As […]
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Not liable
Jesus thank You for c-a-r-e- ing about my MS and my heart problems and my mental illness and my parenting failures. I want You.d-e-s-p-e-r-a-t-e-ly It helps that my life is so difficult for me. I’m not tempted to be satisfied with it. If I was Effortlessly beautiful and Incredibly popular and Eminently successful and had […]
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Self-soothe: an important skill
The prodigal welcome. This feels too good to be true for me. I learned to expect painful treatment, as a kid, if I ever FINALLY penetrated through my parents’ constant miasma of negative self talk about stuff that I needed. Like a hug or a sweater or a quiet space or kind words. Not that […]
reboot my ❤ 