Why is there suffering?

Hmmm…good point.

Father, help me to focus on You. I don’t understand why things don’t work sometimes.

Why have I been sick for seven-ish years? You could heal me in a snap. I’ve certainly asked You often enough.

I remember that all You said was: getting sick IS your healing. (However that works ~ but You have NO trouble getting Your point across, do You.)

I trust You.

I love 💘 You Jesus.

You are the most amazing beautiful wise humble Person

I’ve ever met

and I am smitten.

Resilience

Leontopodium nivale, commonly called edelweiss, is a mountain flower belonging to the daisy or sunflower family Asteraceae.

The plant prefers rocky limestone places at about 1,800–3,000 metres altitude.

It is non-toxic and has been used in traditional medicine as a remedy against abdominal and respiratory diseases. Wikipedia

Jesus help me to be tough and hard to kill. Hardy.

Resilient.

Woooord. Pastor Mike!

“Most of us spend so much time hating things about ourselves that we don’t realize we’re crippling our ability to love others.

There’s no way you can figure out how to love somebody else well in a relationship if you have not first figured out how to love yourself. ” ~pastor Michael Todd

Oh My Socks, you guys!

I definitely had an aha moment.

with Jesus.

this morning.

because of this.

the reason ~ well one reason ~ I have so much trouble loving my neighbor is because I don’t like myself.

However…I am getting better!

it has been extremely difficult for me to forgive myself for some of my parenting mistakes.

Like I said: I’m working on it with Jesus and I have definitely found that,

as I’m learning to forgive myself.

and love myself.

and give myself a break,

and move on….

I am becoming a better parent and friend and wife and child.

Things to 💕

  • Moonlight and Roses, performed by Jim Reeves; played that record every time I visited my Grandma Dodson when I was a kid.
  • Cotton candy stands at the County Fair. I liked the pink flavor.
  • Big band music and warm summer evenings
  • Quiet morning, sunshine, camping, bird song
  • Drive in movies, popcorn 🍿🎥
  • looking through old photos
  • Striped toe socks
  • Barrettes
  • Always Discreet Underwear – just keeping it real
  • Wendy’s 4 for 4
  • Green eye liner ✏️
  • Homemade casseroles 🥘

Different 🌼

There is not in the world a kind of life more sweet and delightful than that of a continual conversation with God.
~ Brother Lawrence

My dad was a negative, impatient person. He had a personality disorder, i think, looking back.

This fact has colored how I relate to God; i was reminded of this during my devotions today.

Father, thank You for showing me that You are not like that. Help me to learn to trust 🙏 and not be afraid of the other shoe dropping.