Big Brother 🌼

Mercy. My big brother was my main abuser.

I forgive myself and him, Jesus. Haven’t we all suffered enough by now?!?

Thank You for being my good strong 💪 elder Brother.

I can trust Your protection. Your righteousness and kindness.

Not that You will keep bad things away, (You didn’t keep bad things away from Yourself~afterall)

but that You will teach me how

to beat them at their own game

#unstoppable

Resilience

Why is there suffering?

Hmmm…good point.

Father, help me to focus on You. I don’t understand why things don’t work sometimes.

Why have I been sick for seven-ish years? You could heal me in a snap. I’ve certainly asked You often enough.

I remember that all You said was: getting sick IS your healing. (However that works ~ but You have NO trouble getting Your point across, do You.)

I trust You.

I love 💘 You Jesus.

You are the most amazing beautiful wise humble Person

I’ve ever met

and I am smitten.

Resilience

Leontopodium nivale, commonly called edelweiss, is a mountain flower belonging to the daisy or sunflower family Asteraceae.

The plant prefers rocky limestone places at about 1,800–3,000 metres altitude.

It is non-toxic and has been used in traditional medicine as a remedy against abdominal and respiratory diseases. Wikipedia

Jesus help me to be tough and hard to kill. Hardy.

Resilient.

Aftermath of the pandemic

~blog that I follow nails this. (Even though the topic is chronic physical pain)

“….it is hard to exactly know where that limit is. We can inadvertently exceed our pain limit and not know it until later that day. And when we do know we did we know for sure the next few days are not going to be fun, at all.

“This is just the way things are with chronic pain. It is hard with constant baseline pain to know when exactly you do too much in a day.

“But you know too little can also be a huge problem. Somehow we have to stay in the middle there.

We know it is a malfunctioning pain system but we still have to stay within our pain and fatigue levels to maximize our functionality and prevent boom and bust crashes, as best we can.” ~~brainless blogger @ wordpress

How do we fix our find broken (overused) alarm system?

Emotional healing needed here

I was thinking about this as regards the global pandemic~ just seems to go on and on and more and more and more bad news until we just feel kind of numb…..I mean, right?

return to the manufacturer for repairs!

~

I need you God! I cannot fix this by myself.

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Repeat.

This is just the way things are with chronic pain. It is hard with constant baseline of pain to know when exactly you do too much in a day.

But you know too little can also be a huge problem. Somehow we have to stay in the middle there.

We know it is a malfunctioning pain system but we still have to stay within our pain and fatigue levels to maximize our functionality and prevent boom and bust crashes, as best we can”.

Lord I need YOU to reboot my heart .

I need you to help me find my sweet spot ❤ again.

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