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Some kids that I care about are making bad choices right now.
I know Jesus will not blow sunshine about this.
He will tell me the truth.
Not everything that my kids do as adults is about me
But some of it is.
I did make some really bad mistakes
Especially when the twins (child #4 and #5,) were little and I was in the worst of my addiction and disassociation and losing time.
Especially when my kids got older and we got in adult-type arguments.
I remember new stuff all the time. Now that I am flat on my back in bed. I try not to obsess over it.
I own it. I’m sorry.
I’m learning new skills.
That’s all I can do.
But
God can do more.
God
Will
Restore
The
Years
Those bad choices stole from us.
He’s got a multi generational plan going here.
I trust Him at His word.
Living with regret
All I ever wanted in the natural was to be a good parent.
I’ve never loved
or wanted to do good
like
when I held my babies for the first time.
and It’s what I have failed the worst at.
Jesus you be my reason. Be all my reasons.
Let my blog help other parents who hurt and regret. #12thstepwisdom
I give YOU my crushing, heavy grief and shame.
Forgive me.
Cleanse me.
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🙏🌷🙏🌷🙏🌷🙏🌷🙏🌷
If You don’t help me, I’m toast.
Amen.
Feel the burn
Lord God
I have some horrible things in my past.
Things that were done to me. That I knew about. That I was powerless to stop.
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Things that i did, myself. Blindly. Foolishly. Arrogantly. To my shame. To my sorrow.
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You know. You were sorta THERE, however that works with sin.
Can I pray for us?
“PapaGod-
As our representative, I want to wipe the slate clean, Father.
Do not hold these sins against us.
Just let it go.
Haven’t we all suffered enough by now?
I absolve my perpetrators.
The folks who enabled them.
And Myself.In the sheltering name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth God come in the. Flesh, I pray for us:
Amen.
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I forgive it. It’s Yours God. You make it right.
I cry mercy.
I plead the sweet cleansing shining 🌟 blood of Jesus
over these sins.
Set us all free. You can do anything, Father.
You.
Are.
The.
Schizzle. “
Sincerely,
Mama Jen
Youversion. nails it 🌻
Oh my purple sparkly socks.
You guys….
This hasn’t happened very much
( well…since I was a baby Christian, anyway. Notice how EVERYTHING seems to work for ya when you are a baby Christian??)
So…
I had a bad nightmare.
Woke up and
made sure I
FELL STRAIGHT INTO JESUS’ ARMS
( Through His Word)
First thing my eyes see when I opened my YouBible devo for today?
BAM!⁴I 1#
Mastermind • Devotional
Reboot my heart
Rubber meets road
- Autoimmune disease
- PTSD
- Difficult marriage
- Dysfunctional family
- 12 steps
- Disabled veteran
- Homeschooling mom
- Oneincome in a twoincome economy
- Abuse
- Abandonment
- Church hurts
Just remindin’ myself.
Escape unkindness
” The phrase, “on those who take refuge in You,”
definitively means that when you find yourself
in the
Brilliant habit
of fleeing to God
for protection during the storms of life,
you will
most certainly
receive
His goodness.”
– you version devo this morning “Refined_Finding Joy in the Midst of the Fire”
I needed this.
Woke up feeling overwhelmed by ______ and dreading my day.
Ran to Jesus in His Word because ….what else am I gonna do?
#desperationisagift
