Some kids that I care about are making bad choices right now.
I know Jesus will not blow sunshine about this.
He will tell me the truth.
Not everything that my kids do as adults is about me
But some of it is.
I did make some really bad mistakes
Especially when the twins (child #4 and #5,) were little and I was in the worst of my addiction and disassociation and losing time.
Especially when my kids got older and we got in adult-type arguments.
I remember new stuff all the time. Now that I am flat on my back in bed. I try not to obsess over it.
I own it. I’m sorry.
I’m learning new skills.
That’s all I can do.
God can do more.
Those bad choices stole from us.
He’s got a multi generational plan going here.
I trust Him at His word.
All I ever wanted in the natural was to be a good parent.
I’ve never loved
or wanted to do good
when I held my babies for the first time.
and It’s what I have failed the worst at.
Jesus you be my reason. Be all my reasons.
Let my blog help other parents who hurt and regret. #12thstepwisdom
I give YOU my crushing, heavy grief and shame.
If You don’t help me, I’m toast.
I have some horrible things in my past.
Things that were done to me. That I knew about. That I was powerless to stop.
Things that i did, myself. Blindly. Foolishly. Arrogantly. To my shame. To my sorrow.
You know. You were sorta THERE, however that works with sin.
Can I pray for us?
As our representative, I want to wipe the slate clean, Father.
Do not hold these sins against us.
Just let it go.
Haven’t we all suffered enough by now?
I absolve my perpetrators.
The folks who enabled them.
In the sheltering name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth God come in the. Flesh, I pray for us:
I forgive it. It’s Yours God. You make it right.
I cry mercy.
I plead the sweet cleansing shining 🌟 blood of Jesus
over these sins.
Set us all free. You can do anything, Father.
Oh my purple sparkly socks.
This hasn’t happened very much
( well…since I was a baby Christian, anyway. Notice how EVERYTHING seems to work for ya when you are a baby Christian??)
I had a bad nightmare.
Woke up and
made sure I
FELL STRAIGHT INTO JESUS’ ARMS
( Through His Word)
First thing my eyes see when I opened my YouBible devo for today?
Mastermind • Devotional
Just remindin’ myself.
” The phrase, “on those who take refuge in You,”
definitively means that when you find yourself
of fleeing to God
for protection during the storms of life,
– you version devo this morning “Refined_Finding Joy in the Midst of the Fire”
I needed this.
Woke up feeling overwhelmed by ______ and dreading my day.
Ran to Jesus in His Word because ….what else am I gonna do?