Torturous gut-wrenching self-catered and perpetuating self-hatred.
Been thinking 🤔 about this with Jesus.
Working on it with my therapist.
You know what the rub is?
I have flashbacks about and
that keeps me up at night?
How I must have hurt the innocents in my path
during the worst of
my addictions or
mental health issues or
_____ you fill it in.( ‘bet you can without even batting an eye.)
What is acceptable collateral damage?
Who has to accept it?
How do I accept it?
You were the ultimate collateral damage.
Father forgive them for they know not what they do right? (Luke23)
Give me Your wisdom on this.
Amends aren’t only for victims. They are for perpetrators too.
Speak gentle words of comfort into my tired, guilty heart.
You are my only hope.