Older than dirt

I want to stay at a beautiful ocean view place for my birthday.

I’ll be ….older than dirt.

—im only 50 but this is How i feel.

I just made a reservation
Im inviting my brother.
First time i’ve seen him since my dad died.

He hurt us badly years ago. That’s why we left our fam. Police. drama. It was a mess. My kids still aren’t over it. I and hubby aren’t over it. God probably isn’t even over it! Is that blasphemous? No. It was a big deal. He’s still upset too. Kind of. I’m sure He gets it, anyway.

Needless to say

12 years.

I’m doing Whaaat?

We plan on aluminum siding conversations only. Short sweet and careful, right? Right.

But I’m pretty sick. Could be the last time I’ll see him. Could be the last time I’ll stay at the beach.

He’s not a safe person. Don’t trust him any further than I could throw him.

Scared snotless. Pretty much.

But this is what I want for my birthday. I been thinking a lot about it. Talking to my bro on face book a lot.

I gotta do what I believe.

And I love my big brother. I can’t help it.

I’m goin’ in.

Jesus help me do this thing. Gulp.

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