Enough. 🌻

I’m done apologizing …

…for neglect and abuse of my children when I was younger, and in the throes of my crazy addicted life.  

I’ve decided that tonight.

I think this is a good move for me.  

I’m listening hard to God about it.

I am deeply painfully and abjectly sorry for my mistakes as a young mother, of course.  Who isn’t: no one I want to have ☕ with, thank you very much. 😁


I don’t think I’m in danger of forgetting that.  Ever.

But you know what?

I’m done crying…

over this;

time to move on.

I still have three kids here, who WANT to connect with me.

I still have a home and a man who needs\loves me.  

I have Jesus. Always.🌻
It’s enough.

I’m gonna let my two oldest prodigals get their own stuff together.

Or not.

It’s up to them.

Prodigal Dad tells the sitch

“If you’ll hold on to me for dear life,” says God , “I’ll get you out of any trouble. I’ll give you the best of care if you’ll only get to know and trust me. Call me and I’ll answer, be at your side in bad times; I’ll rescue you, then throw you a party. I’ll give you a long life, give you a long drink of salvation!”
Psalm 91:14‭-‬16 MSG


Out not in

There’s more: God’s Word warns us of danger and directs us to hidden treasure. Otherwise how will we find our way? Or know when we play the fool? Clean the slate, God, so we can start the day fresh! Keep me from stupid sins, from thinking I can take over your work; Then I can start this day sun-washed, scrubbed clean of the grime of sin. These are the words in my mouth; these are what I chew on and pray. Accept them when I place them on the morning altar, O God, my Altar-Rock, God, Priest-of-My-Altar.
Psalm 19:11‭-‬14 MSG


Consequences suck monkey bananas 🍌

Each day we have a choice. Each crossing has its fork. Which one do you take: the path that seems more alluring, yet crooked, or the path that looks plain and straight? We long to take the way that leads to life. However, when we look around, it appears that we’ve lost our direction. How do we get on the right track, when we know that we can’t go back, but must move forward?

YouVersion devo

How do I get on the right track, when I can’t go back?

I cannot be the only one in the recovery community to face this question.

So let’s look at it.

God?  I know You’re here in cyberspace with us.  You’re everywhere.  You promised never to leave me alone or forsake me, right?

the consequences of these choices I made when I was too young to know better are SPANKING MY BOOTIE, God.

I’m heartbroken.
I need a hug.

Thank You for bringing me through these ❤ breaking results. 

I love You.

I’m hanging on. 🌻

Unmaterialism…part II

“The world is full of so-called prayer warriors who are prayer-ignorant. They’re full of formulas and programs and advice, peddling techniques for getting what you want from God. Don’t fall for that nonsense. This is your Father you are dealing with, and he knows better than you what you need. With a God like this loving you, you can pray very simply. Like this: Our Father in heaven, Reveal who you are. Set the world right; Do what’s best— as above, so below. Keep us alive with three square meals. Keep us forgiven with you and forgiving others. Keep us safe from ourselves and the Devil. You’re in charge! You can do anything you want! You’re ablaze in beauty! Yes. Yes. Yes.
Matthew 6:7‭-‬13 MSG


Unmaterialism…part III

“Not only that—count yourselves blessed every time people put you down or throw you out or speak lies about you to discredit me. What it means is that the truth is too close for comfort and they are uncomfortable. You can be glad when that happens—give a cheer, even!—for though they don’t like it, I do! And all heaven applauds. And know that you are in good company. My prophets and witnesses have always gotten into this kind of trouble.
Matthew 5:11‭-‬12 MSG


Sure thing 🌻🌷😁🌷🌻

At that time, this song will be sung in the country of Judah: We have a strong city, Salvation City, built and fortified with salvation. Throw wide the gates so good and true people can enter. People with their minds set on you, you keep completely whole, Steady on their feet, because they keep at it and don’t quit. Depend on God and keep at it because in the Lord God you have a sure thing. Those who lived high and mighty he knocked off their high horse. He used the city built on the hill as fill for the marshes. All the exploited and outcast peoples build their lives on the reclaimed land.
Isaiah 26:1‭-‬6 MSG


Heart full 🌻

“There is no disguise 

which can hide love for long where it exists, 

or simulate it where it does not.”
The Blue Jay of Happiness quotes François de La Rochefoucauld. :’

Jesus said, “‘Love the Lord your God with all your passion and prayer and intelligence.’ This is the most important, the first on any list. But there is a second to set alongside it: ‘Love others as well as you love yourself.’ These two commands are pegs; everything in God’s Law and the Prophets hangs from them.”
Matthew 22:37‭-‬40 MSG