Relapse part six: moderation.

this is wisdom.

Childish thinking says:
All or nothing

Black or white

Two hours of yoga or couch potato

House is a mess.

 Clean for three hours
Then you never want to do it again.

Pbj sandwiches for a whole summer on a mission project.

Still don’t like them anymore thirty years later.

I am learning to cherish those feelings of I want to do more. Does that make sense?

Let the engine warm up.

Hold myself back.

Save some motivation for next time.

It’s good enough.

Then I will still want to do said thing tomorrow.


On purpose. 🌻

​”Remember that God brought you to this moment on purpose, to prepare you for your future.

Thank God for the challenge that exposed the giant. ” 

That is a great way to look at my chronic terminal illness and all the problems it brings to my family, isn’t it?

From Unashamed a youversion devo

Relapse part three

Childish thinking says

  if I fix something, then it will stay fixed.

Wisdom says:




Baby steps.

The kindness and humility (Philippians 2) of God.

That’s the ticket.


resiliency the state or quality of being resilient

ecology:  the ability of an ecosystem to return to its original state after being disturbed

physics : the amount of potential energy stored in an elastic substance*

Papa God:

 I thank You for

  • The amount of energy stored in my heart, and which is released by my trials.
  • Returning me to my original state, but fire-hardened, like the porcelain on my stove.

*Collins English Dictionary

Not about me? 

​But at least carefully consider this possibility. Because if she is simply attempting to figure things out, your determination to make it all about you will unnecessarily put a wall between you both. Furthermore, if she is really struggling with some issues, you can’t help her through it if you keep responding as though this is about you. If you can open yourself to this possibility and see the confusion that is fueling your child’s behavior, you may find that rather than feeling angry, you’ll feel compassion.

Engaging Today’s Prodigal by Carol Barnier