Feeling suicidal, but keep running into the sovereignty of God.
Suicide is the ultimate “f___ You” to God
after all depression is all my anger turned inward right?
a Statement of faithless self determination
I don’t want to go there, because after all I really do love God. Otherwise why would I be so mad at you?
But living with my failure and my limitations hurts. I want out.
“find myself Safe and saved ”
“bedrock under my feet
The Castle that I run to
My rescuing knight”