Settle me down

Don’t fret or worry. Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns. Before you know it, a sense of God’s wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. It’s wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life.
Philippians 4:6‭-‬7 MSG

Things I love

fat, well-hugged Stuffed animals

Fluffy mom hugs

Giving folks a break when they don’t expect it

a Heartfelt, unselfconscious word

Baby mammals

cats, spiders and garter snakes–the hero guard of the home garden

Pools of golden sunshine–with napping cats in ’em

Friendly side-hugs 

Hydrangeas, phlox and rhododendron

Sound of a well-filled, dribbled basketball

Hikes and waterfalls you can walk under

The Mummy Returns with Rachel Weisz and Brendan Frasier

Reeses fast break and diet Dr Pepper

Doctors who listen

Cups of steaming, fragrant tea

Piles of clean cloth diapers (Thanks mom)

Star trek next-gen

Longing 💛

Let my cry come right into your presence, God ; provide me with the insight that comes only from your Word. Give my request your personal attention, rescue me on the terms of your promise. Let praise cascade off my lips; after all, you’ve taught me the truth about life! And let your promises ring from my tongue; every order you’ve given is right. Put your hand out and steady me since I’ve chosen to live by your counsel. I’m homesick, God , for your salvation; I love it when you show yourself! Invigorate my soul so I can praise you well, use your decrees to put iron in my soul. And should I wander off like a lost sheep—seek me! I’ll recognize the sound of your voice.
Psalm 119:169‭-‬176 MSG


I have been BINGE WATCHING 👀
 Max Lucado, Joyce Meyer, Steven Furtick and  Rick Warren.  Desperately.

I realized that a LARGE part of my pain is shame.

 Thank you, lady preacher.  💛 I have cut and pasted the part that the Holy Spirit seemed to zero in on:

Frankly, I think Satan is always the supplier of shame. He doesn’t have the ability to create like God does, and shame is not a created substance. 

It is instead the amalgamation of lies, wounds, offenses, abuse, and fear that make up the detritus of our lives…

What recycled lie or wound from your past has Satan used most often in an attempt to ensnare you in shame? What truth has God given you to combat that lie? What keeps you from consistently applying that truth?  


I need Your help to face these parts of me that are hurting. 

 I don’t have the guts. I’m tired and worn out from hurting about my stuff.  I can’t seem to stay there in my mind long enough to get a WORD from YOU.  It hurts too much.  This has got to be the most slippery slope I’ve been on in awhile.

You know what I want?  To be restored to my joy, and then to turn again and strengthen my peeps.  

Save me Jesus.  You’re my only hope.


Our eyes are on You.  💛

Won’t God heal autoimmune diseases?

It’s PERFECT ly reasonable
He’s promised

I’ve read of it happening before.

Is this like a test for You?

It would be so easy for You, God.

sigh. Reboot.


Letting go of every single dream

I lay each one down at your feet

Every moment of the my wandering 

Never changers what you see 

I’ve tried to win this war: I confess

My hands are weary they need your rest

Mighty warrior king of the fight,

no matter what I face your by my side…..

I will trust 

I will trust

I will trust 

in You.

Lauren Daigle

Tough love. Who is this tougher for, kid or parent? Yikes. 💔

​Our oldest son

 stormed out at 16 and moved in with another family from his drama club.  He is now 22.

I think the time has now come when it would help a fellow human being love their own rebellious adult child or cheating spouse better if I share this. 


First of all we need you to know just how much we love you and are proud to be your parents. 

That being said we have come to the realization that we need to give you space and allow for separation and individuation. Which means we would like to release you from any family obligations, such as b-days, Easter, Christmas etc. We can tell that these are hard for you and it feels like you do not really want to be here but feel obligated. So we want to release you from that. 

It is pretty obvious to everyone in this household that you do not really want to spend time with us or you would make it happen. We understand you have school and things like that, but there comes a time when it is just more than that. 

So to spare people’s feelings, and to spare them from being hurt, we want to release you to do whatever it is you need to do. If you choose to be a part of another family we do not want to be in your way. We do not say that to be manipulative, we say that because it is blatantly obvious that you would rather consider yourself part of that family, including the comment posted that mom saw on facebook about siblings.  

We cannot make you want to spend time with us. If you do not want to be here we do not want you here. It needs to be your choice. We want you to be free. 

So we release you. However the door is always open. 

We do not even expect a reply. 

We wish the best,

We love you, 

Mom and Dad

trials: my Undiscovered Country 💚

song that got me thinkin

I’ve been feeling sorry for myself.

I am rebooting my ❤.  

I love my life.  All the wholesome pleasures. They fill up my senses.

I focus down on these small delights.

Nature’s Miracle.  That stuff is magic.  Dog got sick and left various body fluids in three rooms.  Cleaned it right up!  Then sprinkled baking soda and left a fan on it to deal with moisture.  Like it never happened.

Dishes done.  Counters wiped.  Dish towel, mat and cloth hung up to dry

Trying new recipes

Snuggling down in my blankets with hubby and little dog on quiet holiday mornings

Listening to my kids 💚

Damp squeaky morning grass

Relaxing after dinner with people I love

Going out for ☕

Yoga with Adrienne 🌻😍

Things I love

Fresh strawberries 

Freezer jam.  I can do this by myself from my ♿!  Except pouring it in the jars.

Naptime with my dogs

Those little daisies that grow in every lawn in western Oregon.  I missed those when we lived in Colorado.

Zucchini patches 💛

Getting good and tired, taking a bath, clean pjs and bed.  Aaaahhh.  One of the great joys of life.

Blue, blue sky and distant mountains, and west of that, the sea. 💛

Going for drives with hubby

Cousins and aunts and uncles and summer 

Meatloaf and mashed potatoes

Big Macs, that sauce and the little chopped onions

Going out for ☕

Honeysuckle and climbing roses 💐

Open air markets

McDonald’s playland

Wildflowers by the side of the road

Basketball hoops in driveways

Kisses and hugs

The way cats curl up and sleep anywhere, with their tails over their noses

Going to the doctor and finding out you haven’t gained any weight

clipping Coupons…POWERful

Bubble Yum, Chicklets or Twinkies

Ice cubes in drinks


New babies

Thank you.  I love You back, God. 💛