Therefore, confess your sins
to one another
and pray for one another,
so that you may be healed.
The prayer of a righteous person
is very powerful
in its effect. James 5:16 CSB
I have a problem with phone games.
It started out three years ago* as the fastest way to kill time and stave off boredom.
But now it has evolved into a go-to when I feel bad a way to escape unpleasantness.
I have MS. Most of the lesions are in my brain and a few in my neck. I was diagnosed about 3 years ago.
As a result, my life has changed dramatically, suddenly and rather unpleasantly.
I am a person who likes to get things done. Now I spend an awful lot of time in bed or in my chair. I miss my garden so much it hurts! This trial is getting reeeaaaally looooong. I admit to a good amount of anger with God and myself.
now even writing this blog I have had to nod off in my chair three times so far! It’s humbling.
My children say that their new mom is way more chilled out and relaxed. They like the way I have had to change, no, the way God Has Changed Me as a result of getting sick.
But I was raised to get stuff done. Gardening, canning, cleaning, cooking I was always busy! I would work till I collapsed!
Now I often feel useless and forgotten. (Though come to think of it, I have had some good talks with my kids and hubby since I got sick.)
Instead of dealing with my feelings and taking them to God In Prayer… I hide. I guess computer games are my fig leaves that I sew together “to cover my nakedness” like in the garden of Eden.
Will you pray for me I pray for you, my friend? God has GOT to help me if im gonna get helped.
There it is. I have talked turkey. Gobble, gobble.
*written 8 or so years ago
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